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Women Writing About Complicated Desire Saved Me When the Evangelical Church Couldn’t

What I’d been looking for at the convent, I could find in reading and writing. If other writers could channel their desires, I could use it, too.

The Sound of Music

Nothing about my desire was shameful, or even unique. It was material.

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Cameron Dezen Hammon is a writer and musician whose work has appeared in Ecotone, The Rumpus, The Literary Review, The Butter, NYLON, Them, The Houston Chronicle, and elsewhere. Her essay “Infirmary Music” was named a notable in The Best American Essays 2017, and she is a contributor to The Kiss: Intimacies from Writers (W.W. Norton), and My Caesarean: Twenty Mothers on the Experience of Birth by C-Section and After (The Experiment, 2019). Her debut book This Is My Body: A Memoir of Religious and Romantic Obsession is forthcoming from Lookout Books on October 22, 2019. Follow @camerondhammon