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Love and Silence in Asian America

If the world responds to our silence and not to our love, then it teaches us that silence is a condition of our development.

Aiiieeeee!

No-No BoyAiiieeeee!

Aiiieeeee!

racist love

This Bridge Called My Back, Aiiieeeee!

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expectation

expectation

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Symposium

You were taught to be the quiet one if you wanted a place

You chose the stereotype because it gave you an identity

Ugly FeelingsSingle White Female

Single White Female

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How can I allow myself to be changed (to become silent) for a world that will never love me back?

Because I could never be accepted for who I was instead of what I looked like, I desired even more to be accepted.

Woman, Native, Other

Matthew Salesses was adopted from Korea and is the author of two novels, THE HUNDRED-YEAR FLOOD and I'M NOT SAYING, I'M JUST SAYING, and three books forthcoming: DISAPPEAR DOPPELGÄNGER DISAPPEAR: A NOVEL (Little A, August 2020), CRAFT IN THE REAL WORLD (Catapult Books, January 2021), and an essay collection (Little A, August 2021). In 2015, Buzzfeed named him one of 32 essential Asian American writers. He teaches fiction writing and Asian American literature at Coe College.