Cover Photo: A photograph of a person lying on their back, wearing a hospital gown and a face helmet as they prepare to be rolled into an MRI machine. Two lasers cross their face in a perpendicular pattern.
Photograph by the National Cancer Institute/Unsplash

Learning to Live in a Body That Fights Itself

I have spent most of my life hating the fact of having a body. It makes sense that my body would eventually start to hate me back.

pinched nerves

You aren’t sick. You’re going to be okay.

I’m afraid I will end up in a wheelchair

Little WomenGone with the Wind

doing well

a relatively normal life

sickness illness well

I have a chronic illness

what can I do for youhow can I support you


Lauren Parker is a writer and visual artist in Oakland, California. She’s a graduate of Hiram College’s Creative Writing program and has written for The Toast, The Racket, Xtra Magazine, Oh Reader, and Autostraddle. She’s the winner of the Summer of Love essay contest in the Daily Californian, the Vachel Lindsay poetry prize, and is the author of the forthcoming collection We Are Now the Thing in the Woods with Dancing Girl Press.