Bodies

Hunger Inside My Queer Body

“I wanted to be like that: hard and boney, a body full of fuck-you’s.”

Oct 17, 2017
Art Therapy Before Surgery

“They did it in one fell swoop, cut out the whole tangle of lymph nodes in my neck, preemptively, ear to collarbone to ear.”

Sep 26, 2017
The Trouble with Angels: Taming a Halo of Unruly Hair

“In the beauty parlor, I watch my ringlets collect like dark, bushy tumbleweeds on the checkered floor.”

Sep 21, 2017
To Surrender Our Bodies to the Appetites of Others

Shaving pubic hair. Accepting mother’s advice. Can a woman (or a horse) own her experience of the world?

Sep 19, 2017
A Test of Self-Love: Competing for Mr. Rockbear 2017

“I wanted to finally be free from the anxiety of wondering if I would be seen as attractive, or seen at all.”

A Myth About Self-Harm

When I cut myself it wasn’t for attention. I cut to feel safe. And to stay sober.

Aug 11, 2017
“I need more time”: Weighing the Option of Egg Freezing

I’ll go through the egg-freezing procedure that will give me the chance of maybe, one day, having a child.

Aug 09, 2017
The Wanking Foreigner From ‘The Big Bang Theory’

“I have a theory that Western popular culture is on a mission to desexualize Asian men. And it’s working.”

Jul 27, 2017
Sex, Frogs, and the New Political Order

“If you opened me up you would find no redness, no veins, only a political thunderstorm.”

Jun 07, 2017
It’s Crying Time

Eyes up, no tears. Dad’s stage-four cancer, I thought, shouldn’t cause everyone to break down.

May 23, 2017
When a Mystery Illness Strikes

This is what I have learned from the past months of pain: We are made of equal parts death and life.

Don’t Let It Bury You

How my relationship with dance helps me navigate my body, trauma, and mental health.

Apr 25, 2017
Until We All Have Voices

I lost my voice at fifteen, when it faded into adolescent memory.

Apr 19, 2017
Am I Asian Enough?

Erasing my dark under-eye circles won’t change the fact of my Indonesian heritage.

Apr 18, 2017
To Swim Is to Endure: On Living with Chronic Pain

“If I don’t swim, the pain grows. If I’m in more pain, what will become of my life?”

Apr 17, 2017
A Chronology of Touch

“The desire and the wrongness both, inseparable, pulled at me.”

Mar 22, 2017
How the Affordable Care Act Allowed Me to Work

The ACA allowed me to pursue independence as a person with a disability.

Stuttering Genes: On Family and Communication

“Why would I need scientific corroboration to make my disability legitimate?”

Mar 02, 2017
Women in the Fracklands: On Water, Land, Bodies, and Standing Rock

“Who is responsible for and to this woman, her safety, her body, her memory?”

Jan 03, 2017
Why I Never “Fixed” My Teeth

I was offered the chance to erase the most visible sign of my poverty.

Nov 14, 2016