Getting Famous On Tumblr Ruined My Relationship to My Body
In the time since being an active Tumblr user, I’ve seen our cultural standards for what is “desirable” shift so much.
In the time since being an active Tumblr user, I’ve seen our cultural standards for what is “desirable” shift so much.
Make me thin, I told God. Make me pretty. I added to the list: Make me Annie.
I have spent most of my life hating the fact of having a body. It makes sense that my body would eventually start to hate me back.
Soon after I bought the game, I began to obsess over another map, one that also didn’t fully exist.
On some level I know the system is designed to break me down, but I feel guilty because I am good at letting it.
Am I ever going to know where I hope to escape to? I understand that I’m trying escape from reality, but I’m still not clear on what the destination is.
As a mother, feeling strong requires different abilities than the ones I had before becoming a parent.
The Lexapro were small and white; the generic was free under my insurance. More expensive were the plants.
The idea that a place exists where trans people are free to be in and around the water fills me with joy.
I was certain my appearance would mask my secret: that I didn’t belong.
A space has been created by this unflinching journalism, this unabashed Instagram memoir.
I believed I had been nurtured, like a lamb, for one purpose: Mine was to be thin.
Each night, I faced my fear. Again and again, I went to bed.
I could only acknowledge my thyroid condition from sly, sideways angles—a hobbit stealing from a sleeping dragon’s hoard.
And does asking these questions make me a good mother?
Not-great tattoos remind you that you are a constantly evolving human—that your definitions of beauty and happiness may change form.
We’ve spent quarantine in faulty mirrors, sparking negative feedback loops.
My childhood rat tail was a lesson on the borders of class and gender.
There—the small red cut marks on the knuckles, which any bulimic could identify as those made by the teeth when finger-inducing vomiting.