Bodies

Business in the Front, Rebellion in the Back

My childhood rat tail was a lesson on the borders of class and gender.

Jun 15, 2021
Cut Knuckles

There—the small red cut marks on the knuckles, which any bulimic could identify as those made by the teeth when finger-inducing vomiting.

Jun 09, 2021
How Heaux Tales Taught Me to Shed Shame

Like Jazmine Sullivan’s “The Other Side,” a song from her latest EP, Heaux Tales, I saw a life outside the confines of conservatism—the length of my skirt and the policing of what I was allowed to say and do.

Jun 08, 2021
That Uncomfortable Feeling of Being Wanted for My “Almond-Shaped” Eyes

My former therapist, a well-meaning white woman, once asked me, “Do you think he treated you badly because you are Asian?”

Jun 02, 2021
Notes From a White-Passing Asian

Can you ever escape your complicity when you can't escape your own skin?

May 26, 2021
Inheriting an Autoimmune Disease and an Instinct for Survival

Science provides me with a vocabulary of illness, confirming what my body already knows: that it will never be the same

May 10, 2021
How My Body Spoke to Me in Sickness

I was convinced that I could handle it all—including healing myself.

Apr 29, 2021
I Wasn’t Supposed to Love Me

Nothing has gotten better—not the pandemic, not racism—but I know, and the Black women in my life tell me so, that everything will be alright.

Mar 18, 2021
What Adopting a Dog Taught Me About My Eating Disorder

During those first weeks, I was in a never-ending, often failing battle with Penny, then an eight-pound roly-poly of a beagle

Mar 18, 2021
Tracing the Seams

This body is the home of both a female and a male self, and I am not yet sure how to help it accommodate all of me best.

Feb 04, 2021
My Body Only Feels Right When It Isn’t My Own

I want to inhabit a form that doesn’t define me; I want to inhabit a form in a way that lets me define it.

Jan 07, 2021
Learning to Love My Mother’s Body and My Own

Envy feels a lot like binging—the more you give into it, the worse you feel.

Dec 16, 2020
Proof of Mountain

On a long-sought diagnosis, chronic pain, and a trek to Everest Base Camp.

Dec 15, 2020
Longboarding My Way Out of Loneliness

When I tried to skateboard as a kid, the neighborhood boys refused to welcome me. Now, women and gender-diverse people are creating skateboarding communities all over the world.

Oct 28, 2020
How Did Vicks VapoRub Become Every Brown Person’s Cure-All?

Maybe these home remedies aren’t just tricks or distractions. Maybe they are insistences on our well-being.

Oct 13, 2020
On Sex Work and Risk During a Pandemic

I couldn't afford to live on academic wages, so I became a dominatrix. But after Covid-19, the risks became too great.

Oct 08, 2020
On Sharks, Sickness, and Swimming Anyway

Nora Feely on cancer, facing her fears by naming them, and navigating a world filled with sharks

Oct 07, 2020
An Enzyme and a Marathon Gave Me Hope After My Assault

I decided to try to find a more complete scientific narrative about trauma instead of accepting damage as a foregone conclusion.

Sep 22, 2020
I Am Partially Deaf and I Write to Be Heard

Why can’t the abled world fit into our world?

Sep 10, 2020
Trying to Conceive Feels a Little Bit Less Awful Than Not Trying

It isn’t my job to bear as much pain as I possibly can to prove that I am somehow worthy of becoming a mother. Why is it so hard to remember this?

Aug 31, 2020