How to Live Without Ecstasy Every Day

On chasing ecstasy, finding tenderness, creating art, and experiencing motherhood.

Mar 15, 2018
Hear These Activists on Gabriel’s Failed Slave Rebellion

Richmond could offer a bold challenge to historical narratives about the South, the Confederacy, and American slavery.

Mar 14, 2018
After Losing the Ability to Eat Solid Food, I Had Lost Twenty Pounds—Did I Want to Lose More?

“I need a new way to eat,” I say. The nutritionist nods and says, “You want to lose some weight while we’re at it, right?”

Mar 13, 2018
“Who Else Has a Son Like Mine?” A Mother Searches for Other Parents Who Lack Medical Answers

How many days had we spent asking the same questions of God or doctors? How long had we wrestled with conditions that didn’t yet exist?

Mar 12, 2018
“Words Are Wind”: How Do You Help a Child Cultivate Both Confidence and Kindness?

I was thin-skinned as a child, with an ego that could put bruised peaches to shame.

Reading Blind

An awesome braille reader’s fingers move smoothly across the page. My fingers, however, move like caterpillars on Klonopin.

Mar 06, 2018
The Version We Remember: On the Truth and Fiction of Photography

We remember only a version of the story, and we tell only a fraction of that version. And sometimes, even that will fail us.

Mar 01, 2018
Why Will You Follow Me to War, Little Brother?

Sometimes I don’t want my wife to touch me. I grow anxious and sweaty at the thought of her behind me as we ascend the stairs to bed. I pass it off like it’s funny.

Feb 28, 2018
“Jonoah and the Green Stone”: A Novel by Henry Dumas

Despite his literary brilliance, Dumas became a tragic symbol of young black men slain by police.

Feb 28, 2018
Silence Is Not Consent: On #MeToo and Neurodivergent Survivors of Sexual Assault

I hope the voices of people who haven’t necessarily had the words when they needed them can also be heard.

Feb 26, 2018
In Difficult Love: When Your Childhood Maps Who and How You Love

I grew up with food stamps, latchkeys, Lee jeans from an outlet, Campbell’s soup, three deadbeat dads, and a mother who wrote letters to a TV evangelist praying for a husband.

Feb 22, 2018
What My Godfather’s Glass Eye Taught Me About Disability Humor

“When is disability humor appropriate and when isn’t it?”

Feb 22, 2018
Ernst Haeckel, the Eugenicist Who Designed My Tattoos

Science is not now, nor has ever been, objective, fair, or inclusive.

Feb 21, 2018
‘Spanish Harlem’: From Childhood Song to Caregiving Anthem

“My parents are quietly crumbling, and their house is crumbling around them.”

Feb 21, 2018
I Thought Figure Skating Wasn’t for a Girl Like Me

Skating was for graceful girls, pretty girls. Girls with money. Not a girl like me.

Feb 20, 2018
On Miscarriage, Motherhood, and Wanting to Control What You Cannot See

On the day when two pink lines stared up at me, I wondered which set of events I had set in motion. A baby? Or not a baby?

Feb 15, 2018
What a Woman Loses When She Turns Thirty Years Old

I feel what I feel, and I cry in the shower with a beer, but the week before I turned thirty, I felt nothing.

Feb 15, 2018
My Brother Died from a Heroin Overdose

I leaned over the casket with tears streaming down my face. They dripped onto my brother’s body, his hands, my hands.

Feb 14, 2018
What Keeps Me Up at Night: How Do I Meet My Son’s Needs If I Can’t See Them?

This is where, for me, motherhood divided into ‘Before’ and ‘After.’

Feb 13, 2018
Freeing Myself from Grad School, I Rediscover Flannery O’Connor and the Medieval Mystics

I try to use my master’s thesis as a way to find myself in women’s writing—the mystics, Flannery—but, ultimately, I fail.

Feb 12, 2018