Bad Friend Art
Colin Farrell’s friend breakup in ‘The Banshees of Inisherin’ is eerily similar to my own. His is just more cinematic.
Colin Farrell’s friend breakup in ‘The Banshees of Inisherin’ is eerily similar to my own. His is just more cinematic.
I used to think the border between me and the world was formidable, unyielding. I didn’t yet realize the ways that the earth was acting on my body.
When I hired a financial coach, I wasn’t expecting to fall down a rabbit hole of mantras, manifesting, and magical thinking.
Where does my style begin and his taste end? My suitcase is overflowing with meaning I can’t handle anymore.
Resting, in this context, is resistance.
I had never met creatures more cowardly than those two mice, but, for some reason, they would never abandon each other.
Because I tolerated constant injury, I’m better than I ever was.
Learning I was autistic gave me insight into my childhood fixations and hurts, into how those things have stayed with me over the decades.
Menopause is still treated more like a throwaway joke than an experience that deserves to be explored with any kind of artistic or emotional depth.
This non-conformist approach to adulthood still sounds radical today.
I’m already leading a different life than the nuclear family I’d envisioned. There’s freedom in stepping away from that, but I find it uncomfortable too.
Going through puberty as an asexual person often felt like I was playing a board game and everyone had the instructions but me.
In that sense, we’re still haunted.
But who decides what’s common knowledge?
There are many ways to be a woman, many ways to be a mother, many ways to be a whore.
According to people I met back home, my face didn’t match my voice.
I couldn’t fight off the sense that there is a certain absurdity to getting tested for a disease for which there is currently no cure.
Years spent in cultlike workplaces under cartoonishly incapable bosses has spooked me from going back to the office.
This dichotomy in American health care is well-known to patients with chronic illness.