Family

All That I Can’t Carry

The life of my Lolo and my family in the Philippines is a deep reminder that people live full lives there and places like it, across the globe.

Mar 30, 2020
What Tarot Taught Me About the Stories We Tell

I’ve read that trauma disrupts time. That violent events are recorded differently in the brain.

Mar 25, 2020
Gathering Visions of the End of the World

Everyone talks about sea levels and temperatures rising, but there's also the more tangible inevitability of the soil running out.

Mar 16, 2020
The ‘Survivor’ Notebook

I remember the day Mom said “stage IV metastatic,” so now I need a show with forty seasons.

Mar 10, 2020
In Search Of: Grandmas

Our son will grow up without grandmas, but we want him to remember these wonderful women he'll never get the chance to meet.

My Family’s Relationship with the Unseen

Maybe my dreams were trying to tell me something. Maybe I had what I liked to call, jokingly, “the ElGenaidi Gift.”

Mar 04, 2020
Smoky & Jack, the One-Woman Dogs

Is it as eerie as I think it is, this mirroring: the one-woman dogs; the girl babies who come too early, too small?

Mar 02, 2020
Mourning My Dad and the Dog He Never Wanted

If I could save her, I would. I needed to feel that it was in my power to save her, to save something. I didn’t need her to be uncomplicated. I didn’t need a good dog. I needed her.

Feb 11, 2020
My Journey from “Spare Parent” to Stepparent

If there was one thing I was clearly not cut out for, it was being a stepmom.

Jan 21, 2020
How My Mother Protected Us from My Father and Found Solace in Art

My mother described the Rembrandt paintings as her friends. I'd never heard anyone talk about art that way, instilling it with something like a personhood of its own.

Dec 10, 2019
Wherever the Limdi Grows: Growing Up Gujarati in Southern California

I deliberately and obstinately use the word ‘limdi’ and not the term ‘curry leaf’ because the word ‘curry’ has always bothered me.

Dec 09, 2019
My Father Lives in Me: On the Lion King, Grief, and Resemblance

“My father, was alive, in me—in my reflection, in my voice, in my posture.”

Dec 04, 2019
Songs and Stories to Keep the Ghosts at Bay

We all have them, those unmet needs or wishes from our own childhood, the painful bits that creep in and affect how we parent.

Oct 29, 2019
You Were Never Home for Long

On Friday, April 22, 2016, three months after my brother’s third release from S. Wilder Youth Development Center, he was rushed to the ER after being shot in the heart.

One Sister Sees X, the Other Sees Y

There are times I envy art’s effectiveness in a bilingual context, its ability to transcend language.

Oct 02, 2019
How I’ve Changed as a Parent in the Wake of My Multiple Sclerosis Diagnosis

On the heels of my diagnosis, I feel there is no way to construct a narrative around what’s happening to me—a deep betrayal for a writer.

Sep 23, 2019
Why We Shouldn’t Call Adoptees “Lucky”

If all adoptees felt not only safe, but empowered in their families and their communities, I would feel better—but not lucky.

Sep 17, 2019
Secret Adoption, Sacrament, and Other Lies That Live in the Body

Will my intestines turn the sacred bread into holy shit, or does the miracle not extend that far into the digestive process?

Aug 26, 2019
I Found the Queer Role Model I Always Needed in My Long-Lost Cousin

I wish I’d known Molly years ago. I wish I had known her when I was twelve years old, wondering who in my life would still love me if they knew my secret.

Aug 15, 2019
Searching for Connection, Identity, and Community as a Honduran-Born Adoptee

I wanted her language, her understanding of Honduras, a family like hers. I wanted things she could never give me.

Aug 08, 2019