Cover Photo: A photograph of a man and woman on a park bench in front of some trees, facing out over the water. The man has his arm around the woman's shoulders and their backs are to the camera.
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I Thought I’d Never Find Love After My Dissociative Identity Disorder Diagnosis

When you love someone with dissociative identity disorder, you are not building one healthy relationship—you are building many.

“I share my body with fourteen other people,” I texted him, an hour after we first met.

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Maybe one daywhen I am healed enough, I’ll deserve the kind of care that other people have

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I’d like to lay everything out on the table. All of me. So that you know what you’re dealing with.

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believed me

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You’re a wonderful partner, you knowI wanted to thank you. For being so kind to Sydney.

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Sydney Hegele (they/them) (formally Sydney Warner Brooman) is the author of The Pump (Invisible Publishing 2021). They are the winner of the 2022 ReLit Literary Award for the best Canadian books published by independent presses, and a finalist for the 2022 Trillium Book Award. Sydney is also a Tin House Summer Workshop Alumnus (2021). They live with their fiancé and their French bulldog in Toronto, Canada.