“What I know is this: Some part of me, however small, is already dead. I live around it.”
Editor’s Note: On March 22, Catapult published an essay by Jessica Furseth about her diagnosis of Lynch Syndrome and her increased risk of certain types of cancers. Soon after, Emma Bogdonoff shared with us a copy of her Winter 2017 essay “Schrödinger’s Ovaries,” originally published in The Threepenny Review. We have found additional examples of the Schrödinger’s experiment framework in other health- and cancer-related essays and believe the similarity to be coincidental. As Emma’s excellent essay was previously unavailable online, Catapult is pleased to be able to reprint it with permission.
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