Cover Photo: Photograph by Thimo van Leeuwen/Unsplash
Photograph by Thimo van Leeuwen/Unsplash

Muscle Memory

I don’t recognize the future version of me the doctor describes. To remain myself, I must prove him wrong.

You miss it, don’t you?It stays in your blood. It never leaves

You cheatedYou haven’t walked away from anything.

How long should I expect this to last

I’d give it another three days. You silly thingI’m not going anywhere.

CongratulationsBe proud of this

You will scare people with these knots

I could do thatI used to do that.

It’s not dangerousit’s just chronic pain.

It will do more harm than goodYou silly thing

I quit.

Kayla Smith grew up in the swamps of Mississippi but spent most of the past decade living in Rhode Island, New York, Tennessee, and Washington D.C. She is a graduate of Brown University and Columbia University and  currently lives in New Orleans where she works at Tulane University. Follow her on Instagram at @kaylamichellesmith.