How My Depression Ruined ‘Animal Crossing: New Horizons’
When I save, quit, and reload, I’m in control.
Animal Crossing: New Horizons
Animal Crossing: New Horizons
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Animal Crossing
I was using it to repeat events over . . . leaving myself stuck in time loops.
At the advent of the pandemic, I had already been depressed for six months. I was already ‘self-isolating,’ having not seen anyone regularly for half of a year except my long-distance partner because I didn’t have the energy or desire. I worked my office job, came home, immediately played video games along with dinner and didn’t stop until I went to bed. I told myself that I would find a way out of the hole, but months passed without any reprieve. Friends texted, unsure if I had moved away because they hadn’t heard from me.
Animal Crossing: New Horizons
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Zelda
Chris Karnadi is a writer, journalist, and editor based in Washington, D.C. Follow him on Twitter @chriskarnadi.
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