May 05, 2021
Learning to Hate Yourself in Los Angeles
They told me, “Gay people are all in WeHo. There are no gay people in Inglewood.” To be gay was not only to be Other, but to be white.
How Clea DuVall Helped Me Find Queer Joy
But I’m a Cheerleader gave me something to hold onto: for the first time, I had seen queer love and community.
Apr 14, 2021
The Queer Diary of an Extreme Heterozygote
Extreme heterozygotes are everywhere in this world. Everyone could be one.
Apr 01, 2021
Visible Invisibility: The Ghostly Nature of Queer-Reading
I cannot explain queerness any longer in ways that don’t involve ghosts.
Mar 15, 2021
Before There Was a Q
Look like “a boy,” they call you “a boy.” Everyone believed my mother got her answer to her prayer, and for a while it seemed to be so.
Mar 08, 2021
How Queer Sex Liberated Me
Leaving my cishet marriage was hard, but it set us both free to find more satisfying relationships.
Nov 17, 2020
How ‘Drag Race’ Helped Me See My Non-Binary Identity
When I look at my personal aesthetic (if I could call it that), I see something that gives me room to move through binaries.
Oct 15, 2020
Taking Thirst Traps to Preserve Myself—and My Transition—in the Middle of the Pandemic
There is something attractive about being the subject and the artist all at once; of being entirely in control of how I am seen, who sees me.
Sep 28, 2020
Herbal Hormone Supplements Can Change the Meaning of Trans Embodiment
Estrogen and testosterone have historically been deployed to produce gender compliant citizens. What if, instead, they were agents of autonomy?
Sep 15, 2020
How the Secrets Came Out
This was about protecting the new self growing its delicate way within me.
Aug 17, 2020
When Work Doesn’t Love You Back
Reflecting on my personal work history, I’ve learned that searching for a job I love has often kept me from balance in my creative life.
Aug 13, 2020
This Green Velvet Jacket Helped Me Understand My Nonbinary Identity
It’s about being able to say, oh, gender? It’s no big deal. I just threw this gender on today.
Jun 30, 2020
Finding a More Tender, Queer Masculinity in ‘The Outsiders’
The Outsiders’ world was the one in which I wanted to belong.
Jun 24, 2020
The Big Gay Move
For all the meaningful internal changes I’d made since coming out, the city and space and circles I occupied were keeping me tethered.
Jun 11, 2020
Queer Visibility and the Self-Checkout Camera
It both thrills me to watch myself as others might watch me in the world, and instills in me a deep loneliness—a grief that reminds me I am so helplessly stuck inside of myself.
Apr 27, 2020
The Homoerotics of Water
In the water, what you are called can change. And words, like water, will dissolve.
Mar 19, 2020
How My Community Showed Me I Could Be Both Muslim and Queer
“It was this Islam, the Islam of authenticity, community, justice, and love, that showed me how to be a truer version of myself.”
Sep 18, 2019
Letting Go of Guilt to Live My Truth as a Queer Woman
As euphoric as my queer epiphany felt, I’d had it as my mother lay sick. It felt like I was reentering the world as my mother was leaving it.
Jul 01, 2019
Reading My Way Into a Queer Literary Lineage
For queer writers, the discovery of this literary lineage is essential to our very existence, to our very expression of self. We can’t find the words without them.
Jun 20, 2019
