Cover Photo: Photograph courtesy of the author
Photograph courtesy of the author

Wherever I Am, I Write From a Place of Grief

Walang katapusan ang dalamhati. What else can I do but live through it? Write through it?

This is the first time I’ve been back to the Philippines since. When I arrived two weeks ago, Dad embraced me tightly, crying behind his N95.

ToThe Groom Will Keep His NameWhat is writing if not living? And vice versa?

Photograph courtesy of the author


Matt Ortile is the author of the essay collection The Groom Will Keep His Name and the co-editor of the nonfiction anthology Body Language. He is also the executive editor of Catapult magazine and was previously the founding editor of BuzzFeed Philippines. He has received fellowships from the Sewanee Writers’ Conference and MacDowell; has taught workshops for Kundiman, the Los Angeles Review of Books, and PEN America; and has written for Esquire, Vogue, Condé Nast Traveler, Out magazine, and BuzzFeed News, among others. He is a graduate of Vassar College, which means he now lives in Brooklyn.