If I laugh about how I have no friends and no many family close and no calm future, people won’t pity me. They might not even realize that I am telling the truth.Because I Use Humor To Cover Up What A Mess I Have Become.
I am two seconds away from a mental breakdown. But instead of telling other people what has been bothering me, instead of listing out the bullshit that the universe has thrown at me during the past few months to gain sympathy or some sort of relief, I act lik
I smile. I laugh. I tell stories about the fun times I have had with friends,but few always realize how my mind acts and what i think.It's good to live life others do not understand.
When i tell people how badly and wild iam.Most will say is a joke. But sometimes I mean it. Sometimes it scares me how much I mean it.Their is alot of me i'm hiding from public even from myself.Most people who have known me for a while can tell 'fred on social media is not exact fred on the streets or at home",I'm known for living two types of lives.One that i let people see and the other i'm hiding from everyone.
Fred and budding dirt are two different people. Budding Dirt is a fake persona of fred.Budding Dirt is the "ghost side" of my calm relaxed lonely sad side.
Lastly,I hate to date.Not because my mind always let me see how this ladies of century have become nothing but void hearts with no emotions but they have become neo-sapiens with no traits of human sense at all.My lonely life can be changed by a person who his ready to understand that life and try level best to enjoy it with me.My mum always say, "Date the person who you can have fun with, even when you are lounging around the house in your pajamas, sitting on two separate laptops. The person who makes silence feel comfortable instead of tense.The person who can fart while you eating and you still okay.A person who will see your weakness and cover's it from others.My Son,you rather live life full of lies untill you find and see good friends and close people who are loyal to your wild niche without complaining.People who will like your rugged dirty life not only flashy instagram pics." And my mum really helped me with the advice.I've seen people talk,people go and people stay.
Try it .It works....