Cover Photo: Photo by Emily Metcalf
Photo by Emily Metcalf

Kimchi

My gut is telling me something

I have a challenge with eating. My friend Parvin says, “That is okay, you have many other talents.” It has always been a struggle for me to cook for myself. Luckily, Lopez is blessed with many locally grown, milked and butchered food sources. Food is a substantial value in our community.

I have taken up a weekly cooking ‘class’ with my friend Parvin, who lives across the road. She has taken me on as a mentee, and I am savoring every moment as I finally feel ready to heal this part of my psyche. I am studying a book and cookbook titled “The Abascal Way to Quiet Inflammation” by Kathy Abascal.

On Monday we made Kimchi, and I now have two beatific jars waiting to be incorporated into my food menu. Changing habits can be both easy and challenging, so I am integrating slowly. Coffee without cream is easy, and no meat is a relief as I am a natural vegetarian, both in my history and within my sensitive energies. The harder task involves eating breakfast, sometimes forcing myself to eat before two. But I will try to eat small amounts to get my system fired up. Some is better than none.

It is all new to me, and as I visit this part of myself that has food challenges, I find there is a lot of emotion. I had anorexia-bulimia in high school, and I rectified myself at my own efforts and with very little support. I have had an addiction to grains and starches from my mood disorder as they habitually gave me serotonin boosts for comfort, and because I was taught to cull my erratic behavior with food at an early age. This has all contributed to a sad remedy of helplessness around food. This last spring I developed an allergy to all grains having suffered greatly with gastrointestinal distress. Much has improved in body and mind with the removal of these incredibly addicting (for me) foods. 

I do not feel helpless now. I am inspired and very much succeeding step by step. I am so thankful for Parvin. The connection was propelled from a call she made to me about my article in the Islands’ Weekly called “Holiday Reminder: Finding Hope”. It was a touching and relevant piece regarding mental illness in our small community. Thank you, Parvin for rekindling my passion for a diet that serves our planet, is gentle to animals and my psychic energies, and one that will continue to heal my body, mind, gut, and spirit.

My book "Glass Slippers: A Journey of Mental Illness" is now available on Amazon and Barnes and Noble online. You can also contact me directly at [email protected] Follow me on Instagram for writings @moonflickerstone or check out my Blog, www.welcometothegrit.squarespace.com