Cover Photo: I'M SORRY by Budding Dirt

I'M SORRY

I'M SORRY I’m sorry if it seems like I am avoiding you. I promise I am not. Sometimes I get worried that you’ll suggest you want sex yet i'm not convinced that's what my heart wants.

I know men shouldn't be so weak like I am.

I know you’re just looking out for me, and I can’t imagine how scary that must be at times. I've phobia of thinking how much you hurting wishing i can give you full attention.

I'm sorry for the nights you’ve laid awake worried, crying, and researching how to make me better.

I regret moments you wanted us to chat but i was busy feeding my ego with friends.

To clarify, none of this is me justifying my behaviours. I want you to know that I am working to get back on to early me. It’s not easy, but I am so grateful that you have stayed by my side. I never meant to hurt you, and I am terrified i didn't realised your intentions when you spend your hours listening to my music and reading my crazy poems.

I know i'm not pure. I'm filthy ignorant and rude. I am sorry for the times I cancelled plans because i wanted somebody real i didn't notice your worth.

I hate times i lost following big backs and light skinned birds.

I’m sorry if it seems like I am avoiding you. I promise I am not.

You crushed and i was blind to realise; If you were a man i knew you could have expressed your feelings.

I'm sorry i'm sorry........

I'M SORRY I’m sorry if it seems like I am avoiding you. I promise I am not. Sometimes I get worried that you’ll suggest you want sex yet i'm not convinced that's what my heart wants.

I know men shouldn't be so weak like I am.

I know you’re just looking out for me, and I can’t imagine how scary that must be at times. I've phobia of thinking how much you hurting wishing i can give you full attention.

I'm sorry for the nights you’ve laid awake worried, crying, and researching how to make me better.

I regret moments you wanted us to chat but i was busy feeding my ego with friends.

To clarify, none of this is me justifying my behaviours. I want you to know that I am working to get back on to early me. It’s not easy, but I am so grateful that you have stayed by my side. I never meant to hurt you, and I am terrified i didn't realised your intentions when you spend your hours listening to my music and reading my crazy poems.

I know i'm not pure. I'm filthy ignorant and rude. I am sorry for the times I cancelled plans because i wanted somebody real i didn't notice your worth.

I hate times i lost following big backs and light skinned birds.

I’m sorry if it seems like I am avoiding you. I promise I am not.

You crushed and i was blind to realise; If you were a man i knew you could have expressed your feelings.

I'm sorry i'm sorry........

Budding Dirt's poetry is intelligent, musical, gritty in observation, graceful in method. You can see a young man building his house of poetry & music, my writing reflect on building a balance society and making it a home. .

Behind Budding Dirts’s beautiful Brain their is a big heart. a conscientious kenyan citizen, using his high profile for doing philanthropic work and is actively involved in a number of charities.music is partly partilly what i like doing.So lets go change world for a better place..